UNITED BENETTON of COLORS

07 August, 2008 The happenings throughout the days

These past few days I have been busy going to many places and have come across problems left by other engineers that users complained and I manage to solve them. Also I received and email from one of the sales personnel whom cc to my boss that the compliment that was send by the user to me. I am happy to say that those in my company were shocked that I just started not long and I have been receiving compliments from users cuz of my efficiency. Now I have come to know that I will not mix business with pleasure anymore.

My close friend called me up on Tuesday and asked me why am I avoiding my family and mum, he says that I am not speaking to anyone of them for some time. I just told him that I have decided to shut everyone out of my life and concentrate on the things that I want now as I have learn it from someone in my past relationship. I have no interests in talking to anyone much about myself nor what I do any longer. I just want to be alone and do my own job. My friend told me that I am being unfair cuz of my past relationship but I told him that nothing in life is fair. I just wanna be left alone. When I am alone I get things done the way I want them to be done. I have no one to live for and I dont wish to entertain anyone at all.

Yesterday was wednesday and after dinner at my boss home which is at the same block that I got a shock. My boss is temporary staying there as his home in Bukit Timah is being renovated. Had a nice dinner, after dinner, I went home.As I was walking I saw her sitting from a distance at another block which was the way to the train station. I just carry on walking, she got up and wanted to hide but I just went pass her and said that I was not there for her. I wanted to talk to her but I find that it is no point as she is not matured enough to handle anything in life. Even thou I still do love her, I just walked pass her with a cigarette in my hand. I did not even turn around to look as I know there will be tears in my eyes. This is the first time I ever walked away. As I walked, I did thought about her and the things that she had done to me. I asked myself questions like if only she would be matured and smarter. I love her so much and was willing to sacrifice anything for her but she does not really know what love is. She use the word as if it is an objective. I remembered the times I was with her, we were such a loving couple with the kids and when we were alone we were so romantic. I really do miss those times with her badly but I know in my heart she will never come to an understanding with me. Both of us were wrong to each other and I had accepted it but she did not. Well it takes a wise person to realize their mistakes rather than not admit it. I have forgiven her for the things that she has done to me and I will move on from here. As for her she can live her life with that man for all I care cuz she will never know the truth of my love for her.Mistakes are made but they could be forgiven to give a better start to making thing best if it takes a strong heart to overcome the past.

"All good things must come to an end."
G.L.A. aka THE SAINT

Posted by THE SAINT :: Thursday, August 07, 2008 :: ---------------oOo---------------