UNITED BENETTON of COLORS

22 July, 2008 My new career just started

Now that I have started on my new career, I am able to save at least S$45,000 in 2 years. As an IT Infrastructure coordinator in one of the biggest leading organization located in Raffles Place. I have another job at night too and the income that I earn is making me busy so that I could try and forget her. In my heart I know I do honestly love her alot together with the kids but it seems that she is not matured enough to deal with any situation. I wanted to give her a good future so that she does not need to worry so much about anything. I try my best to talk to her but she just wont bother. I feel that the influence she gets from others make her weak. She does not know how to differentiate right from wrong. All this would not have started if she did not created the mess in the beginning and we would be a happy couple today. Yes I do think alot about her and the things we use to do and the times that we use to spend together. I realised that she is the only woman that so far has brought me both happiness and sadness in many ways. I just hope that she will understand that I have never meant any harm, all I did was tp protect myself from the things that she was doing. I just wish you would know how much she means to me.

In this job, there are many women in my work that I could see but I have no longer have the heart nor interest.Now saving up the amount of money is all that I would wanna do. I have enough for whatever I need as time goes by. But the thought of her in my mind is something that I could not forget. Only if we could sit and talk things out, it would be great. But she keeps giving me the cold treatment and being rude. She was never like this before but I guess I know who she is learning it from or who is teaching her all this. Maybe she is not kind afterall. I just miss the kids especially the younger one. I thought I could be a father to them like what she said. Gosh! I never realised that I love a woman so madly in my life before. Even at home now I dont talk at all, I also at times go to the cinemas to watch a movie alone or walk around alone by myself these days. I cant be like her who could go from one man to another or keep 2 men at a time. I think what I taught her is all wasted. Loving someone deeply only comes once in our life and it is not easy as it hurts alot. My dear Wolf maiden/shino, I hope you will just give a chance to start everything anew rather than runaway from this. Our love was so special and the time spend was so memorable. I really love that alot especially when we had our happy sessions together.Just pick up the phone and call me, I have no anger in me for you and I never will again. Every month I will send you something which I have never done before. I hope that you understand that I am just trying to be honest, sincere and loving. No woman could replace you.

Posted by THE SAINT :: Tuesday, July 22, 2008 :: ---------------oOo---------------