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03 August, 2008 The Happenings throughout the week

It has been a great week throughout thou I had to go to many places, I kinda like this job as I went to place like the Science Park II, Singapore Expo, and many other companies. My job is kinda interesting and I meet alot of people. Along the way I met someone who got an interest in me as she is Spanish but I told her that I was not interested in a relationship. She calls me from time to time and ask me things. I told her about my past of what had happened and that I am unable to love anyone as the feeling has been lost.

Throughout the week I was also at Peninsula Plaza and at Conrad Millennium Hotel, there are so many interesting things in my job that I have learned and the people that I have met.But as the days go I still do think of her and the kids.Even thou how much I try to forget the past, it just would not go away.My good friend has told me that he understand how much it hurts and time is all I need to heal the pain.He also says that it will take me a very long time as he could see the change in me.Well all I know is that when you love someone it is not as easy as you play a game but she will never come to realize how much I treasure the relationship with her.I realize I was taken for granted when in the past I had so many other chances. Well it does not matter to me now as I completely have given up on love since the day she walked away. Stupidity comes to those who dont see the truth and the fact as it is but prefer to live on lies.

Some of my colleagues have been asking me out too but I have been rejecting them.Many people are amazed that I dont look like my age as they have presumed me to look like as if I am 28 years old. I am quite happy to hear that. It is the heart that will forever stay young.

Sheesh also lately my 26" Samsung LCD Monitor/TV gave me some problem so I had to loan a 17"LCD from my company and wait this coming monday for the repair guys to come and service my samsung monitor/tv. Lately I have been clearing my room and busy studying for my course which I intend to complete my degree no matter how long it takes. I feel that everything in the past that I believed so much has gone and now I have to try my best to adapt to the coming future.Futhermore it does not matter that she does this to me as she will never learn anything, I trusted her but now I am no longer sure to trust her anymore. Maybe in the past when she said that I was the 3rd guy in her life, I am starting to doubt her. Since she is capable of lies,she is capable of anything else.I believe that things could work out well if she tried.Sometimes I really do miss everything about her,the things we use to do.Now that there is this loneliness that crepts up in my heart and missing her is something I long to have her back at times. I only wish that she could be strong even to make things happen between us like how we use to be.

On saturday I went out with Gary to watch the movie the mummy and it was a great show.Came back close to 1 am as we drove back and forth that was faster. I gave him a treat as it was my pay and I was glad that after a long time I am earning 2.5times as much as what I used to earned. Now I could save up more and look for a brighter future ahead. A friend of mine told me that I could get any woman I want now as I am single and I am earning quite as much to look after a family of 6. All I wanted was to be with her and give her the happiness as long as we could have a relationship and get married in the future. I do wish for her to come back to me and that we could start everything a new and make a difference.Life is always full of ups and downs but it depends on how you put things and make things work.

Posted by THE SAINT :: Sunday, August 03, 2008 :: ---------------oOo---------------