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Name::THE SAINT From::Singapore, Singapore
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I was talking to a fren on the phone about 8 at night for an hour. He told me that now that I am back writing things in my blog, he is quite happy to see that there will be interesting things to read about. I told him that I will write alot of things about life in general, things that have been happening and also about certain things in my life.
For starters, he would like me to explain in my blog why am I not attach in any relationship now as I am growing older. He would like my other frens to know what I am feeling inside of me which is the truth.
Ok let me begin here by saying why I am not attach or in love yet or maybe I lost that feeling or maybe I am not sure what love is anymore. In my last relationship, I was working in Cycle & Carriage coming close to 2 years. I met this woman whom I did fell in love with in time, thinking that she was everything that I wanted in her for the woman as she was the right sort of woman for me. Btw when I knew her she was married with 2 lovely kids. She works in New Car Logistics at Pandan Gardens. As time when by I grew closer to her and we did take leave on certain days in a certain period where we went out. That was when it all began for me when I fell deeply in love with her. She was also on the stage of getting a divorce due to what her husband did to her. Her life was a complete mess as I myself at that time did not know that she was seeing one of my ex-colleague who was a genuine asshole who has been cheating women in C&C from Mercedez Center to Alexandra. I told her of the incidents of him that he has done to others in C&C. I also know some of the women. Anyway I fell in love with her and took her out. Got to know her kids and became pretty close with them.
As time when by I grew to love the kids as my own, every day after work I would meet her in Jurong East and head back with her to Admirlty. There we would buy dinner and sit under a block with the kids and have dinner. I also taught the kids some things. I was rather strict with the kids as I wanted them to be better in their studies and be independant in alot of things. During weekends me and her would bring the kids out to places as I always drive them around. We had so much fun, even on the train, when passengers or strangers saw us, they taught that we were a happy family. I spend so much on her and the kids but I thought that it would not matter or that she was not making use of me because of money. I was wrong. She did spend nights at my home, sometimes her alone or sometimes with the kids. The kids came to like me alot, especially the younger one. I fell so much in love with all 3 of them that I would have sacrificed alot for them. Till one fine day when things got out of hand and I did not expect her to ruin everything just like that. She made police reports and also a court case about the matter that I was harrassing her but to prove my innocence I had to show photos to prove that she was lying. As things got so out of hand I walked away from it all in the end. I realized that when I fell so deeply in love with her I was blinded by the bad things that she did. She blamed me for everything and sometimes I keep wondering what those things were. There is only 1 thing that I know I did and that was all. I guess after this incident that made me felt so hurt that I have lost the interest in playing with a child nor getting close to one. Sometimes when I look at a child it reminded me about the 2 boys and her. I am confused in some ways, something inside of me tells me that I love them still and something else is telling me that if I go back I will be hurt again. Now it all depends on her whether she wants to get back where we left off and start again, to make things better. I think I still am in love with her and the kids. That is why I am still single and I cant seem to get them out of my mind. To be honest, me and her are a perfect couple when we are together with the kids as we could talk about anything and everything. Sometimes I love it when she ask me things and I would teach her certain things to make her knowledgable in what is happening.
I guess God has a plan for everyone and maybe I am still searching in my soul to believe whether does love really do exist out there, even there is somebody for everyone. I guess my time will come and healing the wounds inside of me is not as easy as it seems cuz not many people who'd understand me better as I do hide my feelings behind my smile. I wish one day God will answer my prayer for what I am searching for? "Does love exist?"
Goodnite. God Bless n God Speed.
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Thursday, May 28, 2009 ::
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A fren that has pass away
I met this gal in a BBQ 3 years back at a fren's place in Bayshore park, she was a nice woman. At that time I was with my ex-gal fren Corence. It was Corence who sent me a message today stating that she has passed away and her funeral will be held at the Lady of the Lourdes at 4pm. Her name is Caroline Ng and she is only 34years old when she pass on.
To what I know is that Corence told me that she died of cervic cancer which is common in women. Such a shame that a beautiful woman like her had to pass on when she could have lived longer. God sets the path for everyone and time is something we will never know when it is our time to go. Like the jewish who are God's people, they themselves believe that all things will come like what the scriptures have written. I would like to send my condolences to the family of the late Caroline Ng.
"As he who walks in the path of the Lord will be redeem for all eternity."
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Thursday, May 28, 2009 ::
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The Perfect Woman
Many of my friends must be wondering what kind of woman I would prefer, well for starters here is a glimpse of a perfect woman that I am looking for:
1stly she has to be very independent and know how to differentiate right from wrong. She has to be a good communicator. Talk about anything and everything under the sun without having any hidden agendas. No matter women in singapore have these qualities. There are only a certain percentage out here that is very rare to find.
2ndly, I don't expect her to be a good cook but it would be good if she were.I would help her out in the cooking too from time to time or even most of the time if she prefers it. She has to be responsible in life and not take things or others for granted.
3rdly, beauty is not the essence in what I am looking in a woman, its the heart that matters. But if she has both the heart and the beauty that would be an angel in disguise.
4th, she has to be a good lover, be in bed or anywhere. Hey this is the real world here and no nonsense cuz most singapore women I know are bad in bed. There are only an exceptional few. I have also heard comments from friends and colleagues with regards to their girlfriends/wifes. No wonder most men go for foreign gals and when a singapore woman sees a singapore man with a foreign man, all she does is gossip. But when a singapore woman is with a foreign man it is for the money or for the status of getting another citizenship in their country. That has been the facts all this while. I have only met a small number where true love is.
It is not easy to find someone with these qualities as it has died out here in singapore. Its more like money talks and bullshit walks. Well maybe I might be a loner or maybe that someone right has not come along yet for me to encounter her.
I just hate being in relationships that always come out being bad like a sore apple which I encountered in my past 2 relationships. That is why now that I have been single for some time now, I am able to concentrate on other things in life. Most people cant seem to do it as they get into one after another relationship. I treat marriage as something sacred and it is something that will never lead to divorce. So maybe here is where I end by saying that not all in life is as bliss as it seems to be even in religion.
GOD BLESS N GOD SPEED.
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Thursday, May 28, 2009 ::
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24 May, 2009
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Sunday, May 24, 2009 ::
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The week's events
These 2 weeks has been quite busy with both my jobs. I have been saving up quite alot recently to get my BMW 320. There have been some mishaps too and arguments. Also alot of people have been asking me how I manage to handle both jobs without much rest. I told them that if there is a will there is always a way. Moreover I am not attach and being a workaholic keeps me working and lets me be financially secured.
I have seen some changes and there are many colleagues who stand by my side when the going gets tough. I will soon be promoted to what I have heard and I am quite glad to here that. It means more pay. I have also bump into some people on the train or on the street whom I do not really like to talk, I just avoided them. These people are the ones that only want something from you and always asking for a helping hand but do not give help in return.
The weather has been unpredictable lately. But at nite it is kinda cooling for me since I am on board a new ship. Being on board different ships during my assignments are kinda interesting as I see new things and learn something new each day. Also with my part time business now going into effect lately things are working out fine. During the week me and Perlin (my good fren) met up at Alif as she was craving for the Bee Hoon soto badly.She called a couple of frens over the weeks to ask them to join her but all of them gave her different excuses. So I waited for her to come back after work to join for dinner and I head to work a little later. She was finally happy that she got to eat wat she crave for. Than during the week I asked her to join me for a movie, we watched Night at the musuem 2 at Jurong Point.Before the movie,she came over to my place to go thru the internet.She was using both my laptop and the pc.As for me I took a rest for a while.We went for lunch and I came up and rest.Later in the afternoon,we ttok a bus to Jurong Point to catch the show. She was tired and she did sleep a bit during the beginning of the show.The movie was hilarious. I brought my laptop along as I will be needing it for work.After the movie, we went to starbucks where her friends were waiting for her.We got some drinks and she used the laptop as usual. Her frens are nice. We joked and laughed. I talked to them for a while before packing up and heading off to work.
Yesterday was not a good day for me as I fell from the gangway at BW. I sprained my leg and had difficulty walking. All my colleagues were so nice to me. They asked me to rest and not work,they covered my job scope for me. I am very grateful to have nice colleagues. After work,me and Nitty and his fren had breakfast before I head home. Came home,did some cleaning and rested for 2 hours. Got up and did some hitlisting in MW. And now here I am writing my blog. As throughtout the rest of the day I will find other things to do which I need to catch up on.Called Perlin to come out for supper but she told me that she would be going for a run with her boyfren and she will let me know later.
Ok I hope all of you have a good sunday. **MR LONELY**
