UNITED BENETTON of COLORS

15 July, 2008 Things which I have learnt

Now I have come to realized how cold a heart could be.At least there is one thing I know is that I know how to differentiate right from wrong. Especially with the guy, Chris Joel who was formerly from JOS, he was the one who has been sending all the emails to all my frens and telling them that I am making use of married women when he himself is doing it by having adultery. You see an Asshole never learns a thing, all he does is sent out emails to others pretending to be someone or saying sonethings. Especially it is the woman I love and still do love in my heart. Even though she lied to me in the past of not knowing that Chris was the one who send out the email, I knew she was lying. Sometimes there are non-educated people who are smart and there are those that are not so smart and make the same mistakes. Chris Joel thinks he is being smart just because he is in canada and when he comes back here he thinks no one knows. And to the woman I love, you might fall for all that nonsense excuses where he or others might tell you but you dont think with your heart. That is why you always end up losing the worse. It is your pride that kills you. Whatever I thought you was for your own good but it seems to show that you never bother to learn what I taught you.You know how well I treated the kids as if they were my own and how I pampered them at times, how I played with them and how much I love them but all you said was it was none of my business. Are you the sort to use someone to get something or just to get in bed with that someone. I always had the thinking you were special and different if I taught you the correct way.

Most of my friends know that I was never married nor never had a fiancee but it was that idiot that made a big fuss about it when he cheats on his wife and also does that to other women like the one in mercedez benz center. Yes I do remember alot of things and yes he is a man without balls, just put his face in front of me and see what happens next. There is a saying, "Dont wake the sleeping lion." The roar is mightier than the bite. All I could say is that I know that you are so good and right for me but it is due to your pride, stubborness and not willing to forgive that makes you lose out in alot of things which will happen in due time as what goes around comes around as many people have advised me. I for one have remain faithful till today for not sleeping with anyone nor being with anyone but you are different. You will still be with someone and will still sleep with that person no matter what it takes to get what you want. All eyes are now on you and something which I never started that you had made it worse, I ask myself whether should I be the one apologizing for all that has happened when in the beginning it was not me who started all the mess. All I wanted was to give you what you wanted and look after you and ask you not to work anymore as I was willing to look after you and the kids. Now that in this new job of mine which is far better than any job that I have come across and due to the help of a good samaritan in recommending me this job that makes me earn alot, I m happy that now my savings will be expanded. I try not to think so much now as the hurt in me is so painful even though after you left I started smoking and taking more sleeping pills to get over you. But GOD knows the answer in my heart that I cant cuz I love you so much as you are really special to me that no one will ever know.Even you will not know how much I love you. I keep this pain in my heart and now I just dont wish to get involve with anyone anymore. I know I will not be able to love as love is now just a question mark. I just wanted the kids and you badly as you have made me a busy but happy man. Forgiveness comes from the heart of the righteous and seeking it will be found where love is undefine.

Thank you GOD for making me understand the right way of things and as long as my heart remains pure with no ill intentions I will have no regrets as I will not be afraid to face anyone. The one that I love will never know the truth till she realize what she has really lost. I am not a quitter but a fighter. So even the man of no balls who is in canada and at times back in singapore thinks he is a super hero, to me he is just a low-life-good-for-nothing-self-centered-imbecile-with-penis-size-of-peanuts.

Posted by THE SAINT :: Tuesday, July 15, 2008 :: ---------------oOo---------------