15 October, 2008
Matter at heart
Matter at heart is something that will always linger on when the feeling is true. This is what I have learned from my past experiences.I was looking forward to 09092009, but now all that hopes and dreams are gone. I have learned not to believe, hope or wish for anything to come anymore. I will just take as each passing day comes and goes. As long in my heart I have not hurt anyone or lied I will just be strong as always not to be defeated by lies or liars.
It is so true that humans have this sense of fear that when they are in the losing end they will gather whoever there to stand by them and help them fight. They cant fight the battle alone as they know they will bound to lose. You see liars never have good memories. Trusting someone has never been my trade but this has been the 3rd time that something has gone so wrong when you trust someone. Now it is not that easy for me to trust nor will it be that easy for me to be open. What my closest frens have told me are so true and now I should it some ways not be that nice of a person to anyone. Respect has to be earned and not given. Some people who think that they are older seems that they are more knowledgeable but in fact they seem to know no shit.
Thinking by acting smart and being cool or if they know tons of people that they feel safe. Well the fact is that when they push someone to an extend it will all be too late when things happen.I now have come to understand which category of people that I will not be able to trust. I have wasted so much time in something I believed in but now I have seen it all. Well I will just take it as it was only for fun, at least I did a couple of workouts. haha. So I never actually lost.
The point here is to understand that if someone or some people dont cherish or treasure what they have till they lose it,they will never learn the true and reality with actual fact. Now my doors will be shut. So people just remember this even your closest fren/lover/bf/gf/family could be yours worst enemy.
Anyway today I hurt myself and my back, hands and legs are bleeding. I was venting my anger out punching on the punching bag for a couple of hours venting out my anger, frustration and sadness.Mum taught I got into a fight. Well I came back and went into my room and sat by the computer. Looking at all the pictures that I treasured the most. Now it will only be memories kept away in the closet. This is what I once said:
Chaste not for beauty
Nor fairness of skin
Look for a heart
That is loyal within
Beauty fades
And skin grows old
A heart that is loyal
Will never turn cold
Here I end the story of my day, till tomorrow comes with something new. Goodnight folks.
Posted by THE SAINT ::
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 ::
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