As the days pass, alot of things have been on my mind lately.Going to the states is something which I long for. Now I have to get my priorities right and do it. Some people who I have met a couple of times have asked me why am I not married. The question to that answer lies with I have not met the right one as the ones that I have chosen in the past were a big mistake in fulfilling my dreams. Some people could walk away from problems and mistakes they make but they dont realize the sins they carry with them. Many a times I have tried to make things right but at some point certain things are hopeless as there are those who dont see the truth. As long as there is no justification done nor a soul that was hurt I am glad that I dont have to live with a guilty conscience.
For many I have been with I have come to realize that this couple of years have been wasted for what I wanted things to work out to be. Now I take each day as it comes and just strive to do better in the business as well as complete my studies. Earning more than 3k plus a month is something that is not normal to me but now I know where I should keep those money and use it wisely. I have stop believing too much about love as it is not true especially when the people around you seem so fake unless it is your closest frens who understand you better. I remembered I was once in a relationship with a woman and her 2 kids, it did change me alot in showing that I could be a good father and husband but due to the ignorance of others not learning their mistakes, things got worse. I guess they say those who are really not educated to not know the fundamental points of values and principles. Yeah I do think of the kids at times but what could I say or do. She prefers to be from one person to another only expecting for herself. At times my mum do ask me whether I still keep in touch with her but I said no. And further more I have stop believing too much in anything or anyone as I find that it is not easy to trust anyone tis days. Time will come for me when I have make things work out.